The grey sky outside is still lit by the afternoon sun,
though it's filtered through the grey cover like a filthy window. Trees bow and sigh, moving in the wind like
fish caught in a current, their leaves glittering scales as the first
raindrops patter upon them. The air
smells heady and humid, like grass and dirt and life, and the
pre-storm squall blows it into my modest home.
Tossed asunder, the fingers of the curtains beckon me closer to the
window.
I've always easily fallen for lovers that could care less for
me. Not necessarily those that are
outwardly malicious, but undeniably those that were callously indifferent. And the storm is just that. I am nothing more to her than another warm
body to kiss with her raindrops, to tease with her voice and her sweet
smells. But, as is so often the case,
risks are so difficult to assess in the presence of a beckoning hand, a sweet
smell, and a seductive voice. And the
approaching storm has them all. So
I take my coffee and my guitar and venture into her bosom, seeking the sweet
peace that she peddles.
The hilltop already belongs to her when I step outside. The
fields worship her, bending in deep green-golden waves as she whispers over top
of them. She’s already begun singing her
song, her first notes tapping a staccato beat on the metal roof of the
porch. I settle into a chair, and
immediately her teasing begins. A sweet-smelling breath blows on the back of my neck, tossing my hair and parting
the collar of my shirt. A raindrop
kisses me lightly on the cheek. Her
voice, deep and throaty, echoes somewhere in the distance, promising to be here
soon.
Samson, my huge, grey cat, has followed me outside, and even
he seems to wonder what possessed him to do so as he curls beneath my
chair. After one last sip from my
coffee, I place my guitar on my knee and let my fingers slide along the
strings. I don’t play anything in
particular: just a few chords, some
scales, some songs I know by heart. She doesn't care. I mean nothing to
her. And yet, I continue to throw her my
affections.
A raindrop strikes my guitar’s wooden body. I’ll have to dry it soon or the finish will
be ruined.
The strings are already expanding from the humid air. It’ll
need to be tuned.
Steam rises from my coffee cup. It will soon be cold.
Samson mews pleadingly from beneath my chair.
But still I play. She
continues to ignore me in her approach, dispassionate to my
efforts. I don’t mind. Because her voice, her smell, her damp, cool
kiss, are all I need in that moment. I've always easily fallen for lovers that could care less for me; but, for this moment at least, I am satisfied.